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Tahimik...parang pipi ngunit 'ndi

Walang imik sa daloy ng dagat

Pag ang iba'y nagwika, laging kinikilala

At ang bawat salita'y tinitingala.

Ngunit sa aking mga salita't bigkas

Parang hanging, tahimik na umiihip lamang.

Sa isang pamahalaang Demokratiko

Lahat ay may karapatang mag wika,

Opiniyong dapat inirerespeto,

Mga boses at salitang iginagalang.

Ngunit ang katotohanang hindi maitatago,

Na ang lahat ay isang palabas lamang.

Di ba kami'y karesperespeto, di kami pinakikingan?

O kaya'y karapat dapat, di kami kinakailanga?

Ginagawa ko, namin, ang lahat upang makibagay

Mapansin at tanggapin

Ngunit talagang wala, ayaw nyo sa'min.

Pati na kapitbahay o kasamabahay, walang nakikinig

Kapatid ko'y walang paki

Mga magulang ay manhid

Sa aking kamag-anak, basura lang ang tingin sa'kin.

Pati kaibigan ko'y away na sa 'kin

Kaklase, kamag-aral lumayo na rin,

Pinakamamahal ko'y lumalayo na rin

Na kahit isang tinggin, ay di ko na maangkin.

Tulo ng luha'y di ko na maawat

Silakbo ng damdamin'y di na din mapigilan

Damdamin nasaktan na parang salamin na basag

At magpakailan man ay di na maisasaayos.

Ano ba ang dahilan ng aking paghihirap?

Sino ang may sala sa lahat ng kamalasan?

Nagdaya o nang-away, di ko naman ginagawa,

Parusa ba ito o pagsubok ng tadhana?

Tao din ako, may puso't pandama,

Di na kinakailangan i-ngudngod sa maduming putikan,

Akin lamang munting hiling sa laking unting akda

Sana'y ako ay dinggin, tinig ko't mithiin...

copyright by leehaeeji

"ang mundo ay isang malaking Quiapo, maraming snatcher. Maaagawan ka, kaya lumaban ka!”

Eto un isa sa mga favorite line ko na nakuha sa "NO OTHER WOMAN" na pinanood ko together with my officemate..never expected that i would love the movie..i mean i love movie genre like adventure, sci-fi, epic/myth, imagination and comedy but "Romance" for me is just blah blah blah but this movie is different. Not only did the story dramatize the "wife-mistress" scenario, the lines are "pambato and palaban"...also the acting is at top, two thumbs up! I really believe that the story is real (maybe it is a true to life story, we on''t know) especially the scene in the pool where Kara (Anne Curtis) confronted Charmaine (Cristine Reyes) and admits her affair with Ram (Derek Ramsay), after the following scenes are top-notched drama scenes between the three..it was really a tear jerker...OMG! If i will rank the movie 1 to 10 and 10 is the highest, i'll give it 9 kasi ganoon sya kaganda! It had everything: real life situations. drama, suspense and PASSION...

After the movie I ask myself, whose to blame to the mistake the RAM committed??

Is it the BORING and PATHETIC housewife

The SNAKE, BITCH or OTHER WOMAN

Or the HUSBAND who is trying so hard not be like his father but ended up one...

HMMMMMMMMM...

Anyway, just enjoy the lines of the movie that is copy from the internet we don't know maybe magamit pa natin sya sa in the near future ;)

"Ang mundo ay isang malaking Quaipo, maraming snatcher maagawan ka, lumaban ka!"

"Panahon na para  i-pack mo na yang Lucy Torres mo, ilabas no na diyan si Gretchen Barretto. Anak ako na bahala sa red stiletto mo!"

"Anong mahirap kalaban, ung putang mayaman o ung putang mahirap?

Pare pareho lang yun. Ang pinagkaiba lang, ung putang mayaman original ang Hermes, ung mahirap binili lang sa Greenhills."

"No pressure! Kiss me and don't you dare fall in love with me."

"We're just two consenting adults  having fun, there's no emotional attachment."

"Having fun? Ngayon yes Fun! Pero paano pag iniwan ka na niya? Paano pag pinili na niya ang asawa niya? Paano pag na skandalo na ang pamilya? Fun pa rin ba?

"Kara, this is my wife Charmaine." "Your WIFE"

"Why don't you have  dinner with us tonight, pa thank you ko na rin dahil kinuha mo ang asawa ko." "I'm sorry?!" "Bilang supplier ng furniture para sa resort niyo" 


"Sayang kabago bago, inaanay na." "Anything i can do to help you?" "Naku huwag na, mamaya makita mo na nilalagyan ko ang pagkain mo ng lasom." "What?!" "Joke lang. Pasensya ka na medyo OFF ang humor ko lately."


"Mababaliw siguro ako kung malaman kong may babae siya. Baka mapatay ko ung kabit...silang dalawa actually."


"Anong gagawin niyo if the only man that you love is unfortunately married! I'm not gonna give up Ram without putting up a god damn fight!"


"Ang bababoy nyo, para nyo na din akong binaboy. Hindi ako to, pero ginagawa ko para sayo."


"Gagawin ko ang lahat huwag mo lang akong iiwan"




"You can call me anything you waant: a snake,  a bitch or other woman. But i will never be a pathetic, boring housewife."


"Bikini no ba iyan o balat mo?"


"I don't need to read your research report. I know the market because I AM THE MARKET"


"I'm not a mistress. I never was and I never will be one."


"Alam mo kasi ang marriage parang exclusive village. Kailangan mong bantayan para hindi makapasok ang mga  squatters."


"The way to a man's heart is through his stomach. Pero sa ganda mong iyan, siguradong marami kang alam na shortcuts."


"Ganyan talaga kapag galing sa makating dikya, NAGMAMARKA."


"Meron ba ditong paparty si barney na hindi ko alam?"


"Paano mo naman malalaman na masarap pala pag di mo titikman? Kahit alam mong bawal, labanan mo cos' eventually your body will just get use to it."


"Kapag ang lalaki maya't maya nagpapalit ng babae, Ok lang yun! Basta sayo lang umuuwi. Pero pag ang lalaki may suki nang kabit, dun ka na lumaban!"

Next Movie

"No Other Becky"

Coming in cinema

Soon 

AWAAARD!

it was noon yesterday, and i could not sleep because i just found out that showing na pala ng "Zombadings 1: patyin sa syokot si remington"...i was planning to watch it today but hindi talaga ako mapakali so i decided to took a leap and watch the movie...i even tried inviting people but no one came to watch the movie with me...hmm it was sad but i had to be independent so i entered the theater alone..

Maguumpisa pa lang ung movie.."Sakto!" sabi ko..i then climb the stairs expecting to see a full house but when reach the top box hmm walang katao tao..only selected sits are occupied, inisip ko nalang more sits, better view more fun hehe..

After i picked my sit at the middle of the theater, the movie started where the young remington walking on the street with his mom and would tease "ay bakla, bakla, bakla!"..gays then would react saying "pagsabihan mu nga ang anak mu"..haha sabi ko talaga palang ayaw ng mga baklang tinatawag na bakla in public..young remington continued until he met rod paulate in the cemetery and there young remington was cursed to be a gay when he grows up..then the story jump 15 years later..where the curse started to take effect!

well don't want to be a spoiler, so hanggang dun nalang muna..i'll let you guys tell the rest of the story..but for me the story is AMAZING..not only does the cast are GREAT and i mean GREAT ACTING GUYS! TWO THUMBS UP! some scene might me over exaggerated but over all it the cast are great... ALSO the mood of the story makes me laugh and giggle at my sits..especially the gay lingo ni mart escudero (remington) sobrang maihi ako sa kakatawa..hahahaha *sigh

BUT the MOST IMPORTANT that really touches my heart are the LESSONS that the story wanted to preach...the STRONG, HEARTWARMING DIALOGUES really are tear jerkers but in reality are TRUE and HAPPENING today..

its a shame that one selected people would decide to watch the movie but if I would be be asked I WOULD SURELY PROMOTE the movie..it really is a great movie with lot of comedy, romance, thriller and most importantly lessons to be learned..

To the writers of Zombading 1: patayin sa syokot si remington, you really out done yourselves this time...

KUDOS GUYS!!!
KUDOS to MR JAKE REYES, RAYMOND LEE AND MICHIKO YAMAMOTO!

and sa mga hindi pa nakakapanood ng movie..YOU SHOULD WATCH IT! AND LEARN THE LESSONS THE MOVIE WOULD LIKE TO TELL US..

or else baka maisumpa din kayo bwahahahaha (*deep satanic laugh)

~AWAAARD!

:)

what to write..

It has been a while since i last opened up this account and i'm a little bit surprise on the improvements of technology. I was prompted to create a profile for Google account which I immediately do thinking it is just as simple as "A B C"...however what caught my attention today is when i'm answering the questions intended for the web page - "the introduction"

I mean it's hard for me to type in words that will somehow attach people to visit my page. It took me nearly 15 minutes before i could decide to skip the formal introduction and just copy-paste a poem that i personally made...

Funny isn't it, how we could easily describe a friend, family or even a lover in just a second but when it comes to describing one's self the difficulty suddenly reached the roof....

*sigh

Such irony in life don't you think.. :)

reminiscing the past~the time when we are still together

it has been more than a year now..

 i can see that you are doing good in the pictures you posted on facebook and im happy for you..however for me, i still stuck in that situation were i should move on but something is holding me back..i dont know if i am fixated or just denying the truth that we have nothing between us and its all in my mind..anyway i am really happy for you and hoping that someday when our paths will cross and we are both happy and move on..

anyway just wanted to make a log on this blog :D hehe

next log..another poem..

TO my BELOVED~

~ i can't quite understand why i acted that way  2 years ago..

that night, why my tears suddenly fell as the rode the jeep on the way home...

as i mourn on my bed silently so that no one would hear me..

and trying to sleep, convincing myself that by the next morning 

all the heartache will be gone,

BUT IT DIDN'T!it never did..

~i was so heart broken that i thought suicide as a way to ease the pain...

i was so devastated that every night i cried just thinking what happened

that every day i looked at the mirror i saw my red eyes, sore at crying....

and my heart aching wishing that i didn't come that night to celebrate our victory...

~i was kinda expecting that it'll happen, that you'll take the "dare"

but i wasn't expecting that you 'll still do that EVEN IN MY PRESENCE...

while i was there and part of the circle...

~tsk tsk tsk...i can never forget what happen that night,

how that simple "DARE" ruined us from the what we are

at least that is what i think of us...

from all the our  moments together; the good and bad times

everything that i could remember, spoiled by that single "DARE"..

~i know that it was kids play but that time

i can only think of one way to lessen my pain,

to save what is left of my broken heart:

and that is to forcefully remove the SCENE in my consciousness

but every time i see you, those fake smile of yours

those laughters like nothing happened...

i was so hurt every time i see YOU

so i ended up avoiding you, and ignoring you!

~it was hard for me because we share the same classroom

to avoid and ignore you because every time i look at the corner

you are there, sitting, studying and reviewing for the board exam...

i would like to tell you the truth when you once asked me 

but i was in so much pain every time i go near you!

~as time goes by, we slowly grew apart and before we notice it we're strangers

we can never share the same room or celebrate an event together

or hung with our friends or watch fireworks at moa.. 

we're "complete strangers" to each other; like we never knew one selves...

~i know your MAD AT ME, but to make it even 

i would like to tell you

I NEVER MOVED ON!

WHY?you might ask..

even I DON'T KNOW WHY..but i'm certain

SOMEDAY I WILL KNOW WHY

until know i have feelings for you

and when that time comes, 

i hope for the best for you..

-leehaeji

dedicated to my beloved

nightmare~

Prologue..

I had that nightmare again!

It's 3 AM in the morning when i woke up screaming. My body is shaking from the dream, the shadow and the people screaming for help, crying and pleading..
My body won't stop shaking from the shocked that i had from the nightmare and cold sweats won't stop dripping from my pale cold body...

I've been experiencing these nightmares every first friday of the month ever since i become 13, and now i'm 20 and turning to 21 three months from now...I don't know why but as time passes by the nightmare became more clear and realistic as if trying to warn me of the impending doom...When? Where? I don't know but i know it is SOON...

I tried to sleep but everytime i close my eyes the images starts to flood my brain so i decided to stay awake and wait till morning..i just stared across the window of my room looking at the glittering star and the moon, mesmerized by it silent beauty.. 

My Melancholy

I’ve always walk alone, all by myself and often misunderstood.

That’s why when I’ve met you I was so happy and later realized

I'm already in loved with you!

That is why I wanted to be with you,

to be close to you.

So I did what I have to do

to be near you, to be with you!

I did all to express my feelings,

I gave up myself to have you,
do things i don't normally do, 

up to the point that i was no longer myself

sacrifices made for us, so we can be happy..

But as times goes by I've started to fade away.

I started to became apart of the background

of the story you called YOUR LIFE

I became the past and no longer your present.

What really hurts me most is that you never bothered!

you never care, as I slowly fade away, wither and wilt..

You let me go effortless 

I shouted, I called and pleaded for help

but you never listened.

You just stand there...looking,

watching as I crumble, disappear 

and what sucks the most,  i can't do anything.

After all that I did for you,

you never came when i need you most...

you left me with all the pain

with all the sufferings that i can no longer bear..

and where are you now? NOWHERE!!

...

Alas! I’m here, once again

in this empty road

walking all alone.

With every step I make

reminding me of those moments of ours.

Those laughter we shared, joys we had,

memories we choose to cherish..

And the most, the promise that we use to have

I was a fool not to realize that you're just using me,

a fool to entrust my heart to you.

...

But in spite of it all,  I can never hide the fact 

that I WAS HAPPY!

Happy because for ones

in this road we called LIFE

I experience the thing called “LOVE”;

its mysteries, sacrifices and power

even if it’s not TRUE. 

That for once I felt happiness

even though I AM FALLING.

I’ve proven that even us, fallens and condemned, 

knew its meaning, its essence and its miracle

of the "THING" called LOVE

and for that I’m proud.

And so as I cry my last tears

and bid my emotions goodbye

I want you you to know:

“I LOVE YOU”.

-leehaeji

good morning!

as i enjoy watching some videos at youtube, a light from the window catch my eyes.
Alas it is morning already. The 7 long hours of searching thru the internet, watching videos on how to make you blog cool SOMEHOW pays off. some improvements are made but only to the extent of my knowledge when it comes to web designing. i know i need more time and knowledge and a lot of designing intuition before i can make my dream blog, but i know i getting there. Someday i will make my dream blog, someday...but for now i think it is time to say goodbye. time to log off the pc and sleep and wait until the sun set once again....so goodnight to my blog and my reader!until we meet again...

it is friday~

no matter how i hide this, it always shows..my love for friday!

why?even i dont know..it is as if my body sense a strange feeling even time the clock strike 12:00 mn on thursday. i just felt relaxed all of the sudden after a tiring day at work with all the buzzing noise of people talking and endless beeping of the avaya phone..uhmm thank god it's friday!

but it still to early to celebrate, i still have one more day before the weekends so i shouldn't be enjoying just yet....i should conserve my remaining energy for now and the best way to do that is to sleep with the new aircon that my parent bought..LOL!

anyway i think this is it for now...

just watch out for my upcoming posts about the events in my life: my happiness, sorrow, sadness, MELANCHOLY and stuff here in my BLOG...

:)

LEEHAEJI~

i want to sing~

How I wish to sing

The melodies of my heart pouring

Of all the thoughts kept inside

About the feelings I am hiding

How I wish to sing

To sing as loud as I can be

Throat ache, my voice cracks

Mind goes numb and eyes pouring

Finally, how I wish to sing

My legs grows weak and hands trembling

Heart is now content and empty

Wishing and hoping that someday

You will find me